BLOGGING-OUT

As of this moment, I would like to take this opportunity to those who took their time in reading posts I’ve written–or typed in this "friendster" blog… and also to those who took all efforts in writing me a comment–positive or negative.

I would also like to take this opportunity to let you all know that I will not be using this account as my blog anymore… As you can see the last post is almost three years ago and is kind of well, depressing, so to speak… But for my new blog.. my new regular blog…

please visit or just click on the link:
http://killersmile07.livejournal.com

It’s Beneath The Surface blog.

I’ve written or post on it since August of 2005 and I have been using it on and off (since I also have another blog–my blogspot) until recently… when I figured out how to use and design it effectively… The truth is, however, I haven’t designed it myself but just got a code from a friend–applied this and that; and voila! A new colorful blog…

This blog, unfortunately doesn’t have any music on it unless I post a link or an html as one of my posts… My LJ blog also doesn’t have a widget or a tagboard… LJ unfortunately discourage the use of tagboards and applying music on their site… But I posted a link on my sidebar to access my tagboard… Unfortunately(again!) there hasn’t been anyone who tagged in my tagboard yet and so I’m hoping for one person to tag and start talkin’ coz I’m listening…

Okay, so there… as of now, I’m officially closing this site down but I’m leaving it as it is… for you to view or know what my new blog is all about as I left a link here in my last post… Yes, this will be my last post here in my friendster blog.

June 30, 2005

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>>>>>>right now, i dunno what i’m feeLing.. maybe it has this connection with the topics we as my *new found friends in lasalle* discussed and the presentation jason did..

its about *SUICIDE*…

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i dunno whenever i hear the word.. i feel kinda eerie.. maybe because of what has happened before and the attempt to do that kind of thing.. SUICIDE… SUICIDE.. SUICIDE..

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almost killed myself[so long long ago..]..until GOD made me realize what has LIFE to offer…and aside from that… because of the *shallow* reason!! haha.. i don’t wanna talk about..

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that’s why i don’t know how to react when the topics to be discussed is *LIFE* and SUICIDE>.. i somehow,… kinda recovered… but the thing is.. my memory of attempting suicide will always be there…. haaaayyy…..

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this post is kinda depressing… so i won’t continue… i wan’t to forget those times– the past… but i can’t… i guess, it’ll just remain…:(

few things, Lately i’m feeling and have found out bout myself:

1. its so hot in here!!!
2. i’m bored.. i can’t talk.. coz i’m sick
3. i’m ANEMIC!! WAHOOOOOOOO!!!1 :((

hahaha… a while ago.. it was UBREAK in our schooL.. and u know,,, i was supposed to go to my interview, but i felt the urge of drinking alcohol!!.. haha.. *naughty Li’L me!* haha.. iT was JoM’s TreaT!! haha.. *sarap ng LiBre*.. mALia, jAnna aNd me.. aLL wEnT to UMALL… hehe..!!

MaN, hOw i miSSed the TaSte oF SaN miG LiGht!! haha.. i onLy drank One boTTLe of iT.. weLL, i kinda heLp MaLia drink hers and Janna’s Red hoRse… BUT, FoRtuNaTeLy, i didn’t GeT dRuNK!! haha.. weLL, JOm goT dRuNk.. kind of "oVer-DRuNk" *is there a term?*.. weLL, ThaNks to MaLia, she guided and accompanied JOM to the MRT… and me and jANNa?

          weLL, we weNt straight to RoB’s PLaCe to meet mArtiN, AriAne, KiziA aNd JinO..

       we mEt them in G-Box they were with JiLL, Sara, KiM, Tracy and KeV.. aNd we saNg sOnGs.. WeaK, i’LL never get over you,.., and so on… we had FUN!! hahaha.. buT the place is …. so  iSKWATER!!! haha moRe vAndaLs on waLLs.. the room is suffocating!! and the bench are LaCking.. that’s why most of us sat on the FLOOR…!!

         Then, we met cLaRence and Resty *her boo!!* haha.. from holy spirit aca of malolos.. then we talked about siR cazckY aNd hOw he makes batok peepoL!! and all..

         weLL, GoTs To sTudy.. ByE see you whEn i see you my dearezt bLoG!!!

God ThaNks aGen fOr this wOnderfuL daY!!

WoW!!! Am i jUst so GLaD that i pAssed the appLicaTion exam in "AnG PAHAYAGANG PLARIDEL"… I so really want to become a member of their staff..  Am i JUst So haPPy that I pAssed.. iT’s Like the FeeLing i feLt when I passed the entrance exam in DLSU… when in the beginning i knew i failed the exam…

        Wow… the questions in the test [especially in GEN.InFo], were so hard… well, not that hard for those who are inclined with current events and all.. but for me, I have no idea, about such things…!!! Man, was I shocked when i saw the first part of the exam…!!!  :O…. But on the second part or the "SECTION" exam.. it was "QUITE" easy.. coz i was just asked to make an article… about some certain topics…and give my piece of mind!!! that was easy.. but to make an outline of an article, - that i didn’t know.. yes, I admit, I was a FiLipino editor in our schooL paper before, but they didn’t teach us how to make an outline of an article.. we were just asked to make  an article and submit it on TiME… and THAT WAS ALL!!!

           buT aT LeasT,,,, I PAsseD iT… i was suRpRised whEn a whiLe aGo, a Staff from the FILIPINO sCHooL paper called and told me, I will be inTerviewed in the SPS buiLding  503…anytime between Tuesday-Friday this week… Then, in the following week, i’LL know the results.. !!!

SPS BUILDING 503…? woW… ThaT’s a aLmost at the Top of the buiLding with nO eLevators… buT iTs o’RyT!!! besides i passed!!1 wahoo!! i’M so HAPPY!!!

ThaNks GOD!!! foR eVeryThiNG!!!!

GoD… i DiDn’T know what to do with this guy… i’m confused…

I ReaLLy LiKe thiS guY… he’s sendiNg siGnaLs aNd sTuFfs LiKe That… bUt nOw… what happened??????

i haVe no iDea.. whY aLL of a suDden… DEDMA!!!!!

PROMISe!!… i ReaLLy LiKe hiM aNd aLL… he’s kiNd [although for a while...], he’s so FuNNy [although some are corny but in a LiTTle waY quiTe fuNNy..], he’s Good-LooKinG [aLThoUGh he has a sPaNkiN' ASSet!!which is quite sxy..], baSta aLL….those things….

now… wla LnG.. aLL oF a sUdden.. nde na nagpaparamdam.. i mean i must admit… na were okei and all.. pero ngeon parang ayaw nia ko magtxt smantalang 1week ago… nag-email p xa sken para lng magparamdam ako sakanya… haaaaaaayyyyy…. ewan ko ba.. kng ayaw nia lng magkaroon ng guiLt kc naaawa xa sken… or me paKiaLaM LnG talaGa xa aNd meRoNg caRe…

nakAkainis kc… xge uN LnG mUna… bye byE mY deaR BLOG na me musiC…

wla LnG… nAgTxT ka?!… aFTeR hoW mAny weeKs aNd daYs..?…

weLL aUs Lng… aT LeaSt nde mU paRiN aKew kinAkaLiMuTan… dba?… beLaTed hAppy FiEsTa nGa pLa… aNd wLa LnG.. wLa Ko mSaBe.. eWaN ko kUnG TiNiTiGnaN mu ba ToNG bLoG ko Or whAt pEro… iF EvEr … man…. e di aLam mu na uNg FeELinGs kO foR yOu… weLL, wLa LnG un…

aSTiG ka pA diN.. kHiT naGsKaNdaLo ung FoNe ko nUnG CoNVOCaTIOn naMiN sa SkuL aT nAgTinGinaN uNg mGa PeePz, aDmiN saKen.. aUs pa diN aKew>> weLL, whaT cAn i sAy? maLaKas ka SaKiN cRUsh e!! hehehe… jox…

whadaya ThiNk aBouT maH poEm FoR yoU?!?!?!… ha? what do you think… pAnGiT ba? uu Lam ko pAnGeT… hehehe pero i did my best noh!!!! neweiz,, hi! heLLo!! mUsTa ka na!?!?! wLa na keW baLiTa sEo… taWaG ka nMn sa hAuz…LaM mu uNg no ko.. waG nGa LnG mGa GaBi kc.. TuLoG nacoh.. mGa 7-10pm nmn… waG na 11pm… kei?.. muWaaaahhhuGsssss….

MAYBE

i don’t understand why,
Why i can’t sleep at night.
Maybe this heart still Longs for you
Maybe that’s why I’m feeLing blue

i never expected it to happen this way
Maybe the reason is I want you to stay.
I never intended to hurt you so bad
Maybe you misinterpreted the things i said.

All i wanted to say,
Was that, "I Like you and please stay."
Maybe you thought i was fooLing around.
But deep inside, I was really feeling down.

Still it hurts me so much more
That you’re mad at me - not Like before.
Yes, I might have said those things to you
But can’t you see? I’m falling so true.?

And now I’m feeLinG ever so GuiLty,
Maybe because you didn’t accept my apology..
Please forgive me, This is True..
Maybe because I’ve fallen, deeply & madly inlove with you…

This poem’s for you & its not made-up
So I hope you’ll keep this and not throw in the dump.
I didn’t get this from a hallmark card
I swear it all came from my heart
I’m stuck here listening to "I WON’T CRY" [by pRoFYLe]
but it feels like i’M gonna die
I swear I’ve never written a poem this long
nor dreamt to sing you - on a guitar - my song
I know after reading this, its ME you’ll still HATE
But i know you still can APPRECIATE.
I still wanna say sorry
For the things I said.
Please don’t hate me!
I was just out of my head.
Now the radio’s playing "IN A RUSH" - your favorite song,
And I’Ve got to end this very long poem.
What i’ve said in this poem is really true,
I hope you’ll believe, oh yes i do!
please accept my apologies,
Its just that this opportunity i don’t wanna miss…
To say sorry when you’re already gone,
There’s only one word for all of this - its BLISS…

cAn i post sOme oF mAH piCs hEre..? hmmm… dUNno…

iM juSt feeLiNg cALm.. kHiT nDe nA kMe mAgtTXt sa iSa’T iSa.. duNNo e.. iM feeLinG cALm…  aNd beSiDes… i’M kinDa exciTed na sa 6… kc eNroLLmeNT na NmiN… LhaT nG mGa coLLeGe oF LiBeRaL ArTs.. hehehe…

mAssComm sTuDeNt po kc aCoh eh.. hehehe taS sa 11.. iL gO bAck 2 LaSaLLe and have mY piCtuRe taKeN,, tHen go with mArj, sa APC in MaGaLLaNes….. for her pictuRe taKinG… waaahh.. i’M coLLege na!!!!

——->ThaTs oUr cLass piC… 3-maGnEsiuM…hehehe